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SPAM RARRR

2011-02-19T03:23:00.000+08:00

Im so sick of the spam, im moving over to Tumblr!

http://less3beat.tumblr.com/

2011-01-14T01:15:00.003+08:00

2 Weeks of school flew by just like that. Having a 3 day school - week lengthens my break SO MUCH! I feel i have a whole load of time for me to prepare for every single classes. Taken ill this week, perhaps i've been putting myself under more pressure to perform. Even for an ungraded presentation, i stayed up till 4am. Ever since i fell sick, medicine helped me to sleep early, sleep in a little bit more in the mornings. It's definitely helping my recovery so far, but i do get tired more easily in school. But hey, seen a cancer patient in class who's still so diligently participating, gotta buck up!

Says a lot about my stamina and health huh? Time to keep a check on the calories intake ^^ and the amount of sleep i should be getting. Not to forget, build up my mental discipline too!

2010-12-30T01:34:00.002+08:00

Depleted once again. Seems like a vicious cycle is taking place, always end/start the year broke. LOL... i need my ocip money back asap! only getting next wednesdayyyy... what a long wait. T_T

2010-12-20T22:18:00.004+08:00

bEStie's 21st

Planning

“Planning is bringing the future into the present so that you can do something about it now”

Alan Lakein

two weeks to plan after exams, with only two people to celebrate with.

Plan #1 : On 15 Dec, chillax morning brunch at kith cafe at Robertson Quay, lunch at A Thousand Tales at Haji Lane, dinner at Vanilla Cafe and Bar + their special flower dirt pot dessert that was meant as a joke.

1 week before birthday found out ACCA exam venue at Expo
Eve of birthday: Celebrate at the nearest place at Changi Airport suggested by Hsingzz.
Involving a scavenger hunt, at Changi Airport by planting gifts around Changi Airport. Flowers, gift basket, cards. Finally dinner at the most decent place i could find at Changi, T3 Earle Swensons.

Some notes i made while brainstorming for gift... the full notes with the above venus would be 2 pages long so i shall spare you the details.

Calendar at Kikki K with aeroplane and scenaries or our chio pictures???? $24.90 excluding photo print outs, and aeroplane stickers

Polariod camera and many more pictures! Nice picture album! $ 120 + Album about $20 = $140 (split by? Yb, xl, mh, me and hy)

120/5=24 picture albums from ANBC bookshop. Handmade travel pouch to keep clues ^^ purple!

Dinner, plus cake? Plus treasure hunt stuff (ranging from cosmetics to sweets, to random stuff!) treasure hunt is like travel style~!?

Birthday Cake: Rive Gauche Guanja $45

Painstaking efforts to dig out best eateries and restuarants in the areas for the special 21st. My original plan of two days celebration didnt materialize. People told me that celebration would be more meaningful if i celebrate on the day itself. And some advised that after exams, a scavenger hunt is just too tiring after exams and for the people to carry out. Ideas for gifts got shot down partly because the calendar that i tot would be perfect for Lydia's office table was far from perfect, the dates were tiny and aligned at the bottom so the big portions could be decorated with photos and notes. In the end i found it impractical and shot it down. Polariod was given up for fear that people find disparity amongst the celebration. I'm well known for being biased.

I went to borrow the search for ideas to my favourite hangout place whenever im at a loss. Library. Went through colorful scrapbook designs, trying to find the few that Lydia liked, but nothing beats trying to craft and design something yourself from scratch. Putting the bits and pieces one by one, at the end, feels very satisfying. But by the time im done, it still looked plain with just decorated paper, so i did some last minute shopping for more materials, really last minute, ahahaha and got caught doing up the last bit of the gift when i met Lydia on the eve of her birthday.

Plan on eve failed, because exam venue was at Marymount instead of Expo. Conveniently and selfishly decided to celebrate the eve with a simple dinner and movie at Cineleisure instead while having mei hsing to xiao ling for dinner the following day since they felt celebrating on the actual day would be more meaningful.

And heard of a really great dessert buffet, how's 21 desserts for 21st? sweet~ and so ... something that was simple and not requiring one to travel from one end of the quay to another, sounds like a pretty good plan. unravelled the original plans while i touched up on the gift cards.

Thats how we ended up having dessert buffet at a magnificent place, one ninety. Although there wasnt a crowd when we celebrated it, i hope it was still special. I have not much skills other than picking venues for birthday. I really need to up my skills the next time ;)

On a side note, autograph books, letters are awesome treasures containing beautiful words from your loved ones. Hold on to them, who knows how it may turn you life around. =)

2010-11-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

time flies! tmr marks the end of 4 papers, leaving one last disastrous paper on monday. Its amazing how i managed to survive the past three days. Sleeping on the living room couch just so i can get up at unearthly hours to continue mugging, having lunch for dinner, ransacking fridge at 2.30am, cup after cup of coffee, endless list of Armin trance music, random kpop love songs and oh so glorious notes that ive become so "Attached" with.

and probably 2 and half years later, im just gonna look back and laugh at these silly days driving myself nuts, chasing the wonderful sheet of "toilet paper"

fast forward to december please... the past week though amazing, is quite torturous. Tonight's gonna be a WUUUUUUUUNNNNNDAAAAFOOOOOO nite.

2010-11-24T19:47:00.001+08:00

how entertaining can my prof be? lol once again, he brought laughter one day before exam, and maybe a bit of worry coz he just released the format. =.= the following is his lovely email!

Hi class: Trust this email finds you basking in the glory of acing your

(a) Accounting exams (What is a debit? And if a debit if has shaved off its beard recently and lost 40 pounds, does it become a credit to itself?)
(b) Econ exams (When demand and supply meet for the first time, is it appropriate for demand to be expected to pay for dinner? Discuss, using graphs with dotted and straight lines and shifting curves.)
(c) Technology and world change exams (The latest technological innovation of Apple is called the Ip_d. This involves what change of letter from its previous innovation? ___)
(d) Business, government and society (What are the differences between business, government and society? (hint: this is a trick question))

And looking forward eagerly to your
(e) Marketing exam (Marketing is evil. True or False?)

The marketing exam is waiting for you to ace it too. Here’s the format.
I. 20 fill in the blank questions (10 points with no negative marking and possibly partial credit for semi-correct answers, but not for the merely amusing answers)
II. Calculation question with two parts (5 points)
III. Very short answer question (3 points)
IV. Very short answer question (3 points)
V. Long answer question (5 points)
VI. Case questions with two parts (4 + 5 points)
VII. Mystery question (1 point)

So the maximum score is 36 points in this exam.

See you all tomorrow evening (5 to 7 p.m. in the Admin building sports hall) for our last formal encounter for a while! Don’t stay up all night cramming – the exam’s at 5 lah. Study after lunch tomorrow enough oredy!

Updatingly, and Jia-you’ingly yours,

2010-11-15T02:15:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i just love my marketing prof!

A few days back, there's a loud scream frm Sch of biz 5 storey coz my prof was "screaming for joy at having finished his last class for the term."

This was in his epic email (which in my opinion was sent full of love) to us why he was screaming for joy...

"Hi Class: Did any of you just hear a loud scream from the fifth level of the LKC school? If you did, I hope you were not distressed – that was me, screaming for joy at having finished my last class for the term. Not that I did not love every minute of being in class with you all these past 13 weeks – what’s not to love? It’s more that too much sweetness can also make you ache for a change of flavor – there’re theories in Consumer Behaviour about that. And I’m glad to be able to restore my early morning routines, my gym routine, my Chinese learning routine, to find out how tall my daughter has become since the start of the term, etc. – all that I had to put off in this particularly hectic term, in which I had to teach an MBA class on Saturdays, and also had to make three frantic trips home to India.

Of course, there is a huge pile of grading all around my office – MBA course grades are due soon, and of course, all your lovely individual and group assignments are awaiting my stern evaluative eyes. I’m trying hard to not make eye-contact with those assignments, so they don’t intimidate me. And I can probably parry off their attempts to interfere with my R and R and D and D schedule (that’s rest and research, and Domestic chores and Daughter, if you must know) until it is absolutely imperative to get the grading done when I will finish them all in a mad caffeine-supported-eye-torturing-soul-searching (e.g. why did I ever set so many assignments, when I know I have to grade them all) campaign (which will be reminiscent of the last stages of the wonderfully planned preparations for the Commonwealth Games in New Delhi recently). And of course, who’s to say there might not be a minor fire accident that will lead to some of the office papers going up in flames, forcing me to just give As to everyone as a substitute? So I will play that waiting and avoiding game with those pesky bits of paper, who have for now, at least been neatly arranged, sorted and labeled. I love sorting out work to be done, and classifying it, making plans to complete it etc. – it gives you such a feeling of control, even while you make no real progress, and you could have spent that time actually doing the work itself.

All that was a lengthy prelude to say: THANK YOU! For showing up on Tuesday and today. I just said BE THERE “Attendance is compulsory” and (bar a tiny few, whose names I have memorized and seared into my soul), almost all of you showed up. I said BE ATTENTIVE and DO NOT SURF and again (bar a tiny few), most of you paid attention. And I said, BE ON TIME, and almost half of you showed up on time (oh well, perhaps that was not entirely in your control). So thanks, for helping end this course on a high note – it would have been very depressing if only the presenters had showed up for each class. And I hope you all learnt a lot too from the other presentations. I learnt a lot for sure. I learnt for example that I need to spend more time teaching the meaning of “stratified random sampling,” which was a much abused word :D Kidding lah, I learnt a lot about all these various brands you critiqued – and it felt good that you had internalized many different concepts taught in this course. And some of you asked excellent questions too.

Meanwhile, rest well, stay hopeful about life, get some rest, note that study break week has two parts to it (study + break), and stay out of trouble until the exams end, K?

A little deliriously yours"

So sweet right??? hahaha he's a funny Prof, and i am going to bid for him again in future!! =D

well, like Prof said. Study break = study + break. I am weighing a little heavier on the dangerous break side! time to seriously hit the books, not that i havent, but so far over 3 days i managed to master 4 chapters of finance. and i really meant master! but i gotta hasten, time's against me.

Anyways, today in Church mentioned a lil about Christmas, how its a good time of reflection of what's happened in the year. Wow... and i was thinking about it on the bus and i teared. So much has happened, that helped built every single part of me. I cant say i am extremely satisfied with my own performance ( com'n you're talking about liz here, satisfaction never exists if perfection doesnt ), but i am contented with the progress im making.

Pitfalls, failures, successes... they all contribute to part of me. Deceit, truth, friendships, enemy and more than friends. Sounds like Dramaaaa mama to me as compared to only grades. Definitely a breakthrough this year is to open up more to my uni friends, being able to be me in front of py and shan and knowing that they wouldnt judge me. New friendships deepen, but i see myself lacking in pushing for my current friendships. My bad, bestie. I acknowledge that i drive myself crazy and inaccessible to you many times and also to my other frens. And you gals are all so independent, until im not sure whether its such a good thing or not. Im sure you gals are fine on yourselves, but sometimes i wished i had more time so i could be more of use to you all.

Thinking of setting higher goals for the year ahead, striving for more, pushing for greater heights, stretch~ to the limits. Just giving my best and honouring the precious life and time given to me ;) Kinda abrupt, but shall just end here... will be back occassionally this week when mugging gets to my bored itchy fingers ~

2010-11-01T02:39:00.000+08:00

你不知道的事...

On Eagle's Wings

2010-10-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

2010-10-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

seriously fml...

kinda brought it upon myself... but can only pray and leave it to God.

50 to-do list in college!

2010-09-26T02:08:00.003+08:00

Inspiring list to read in the middle of 2am... when life sucks, studying is getting no where... you dun feel so lonely. moved me tears, MUST READ! written by the MIT admissions p-i-c, Ben Jones

"50 Things"

Dear Class of 2010,

This will be my last entry written specifically for you; beginning with the launch of our new site in early September, I'll begin focusing on the future class of 2011. I hope that you guys won't be strangers; stay in touch either in person (come visit us!) or online (please drop by the blogs from time to time and say hi).

As you begin your college experience, and I prepare for my 10-year college reunion, I thought I'd leave you with the things that, in retrospect, I think are important as you navigate the next four years. I hope that some of them are helpful.

Here goes...

1. Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.

2. Call someone you love back home a few times a week, even if just for a few minutes.

3. In college more than ever before, songs will attach themselves to memories. Every month or two, make a mix cd, mp3 folder, whatever - just make sure you keep copies of these songs. Ten years out, they'll be as effective as a journal in taking you back to your favorite moments.

Im so gonna do this! wheee

4. Take naps in the middle of the afternoon with reckless abandon.
already done that! absolute relaxation!!! until haha work starts piling... OOOPS!

5. Adjust your schedule around when you are most productive and creative. If you're nocturnal and do your best work late at night, embrace that. It may be the only time in your life when you can.

6. If you write your best papers the night before they are due, don't let people tell you that you "should be more organized" or that you "should plan better." Different things work for different people. Personally, I worked best under pressure - so I always procrastinated... and always kicked ass (which annoyed my friends to no end). ;-) Use the freedom that comes with not having grades first semester to experiment and see what works best for you.

7. At least a few times in your college career, do something fun and irresponsible when you should be studying. The night before my freshman year psych final, my roommate somehow scored front row seats to the Indigo Girls at a venue 2 hours away. I didn't do so well on the final, but I haven't thought about psych since 1993. I've thought about the experience of going to that show (with the guy who is now my son's godfather) at least once a month ever since.

8. Become friends with your favorite professors. Recognize that they can learn from you too - in fact, that's part of the reason they chose to be professors.

9. Carve out an hour every single day to be alone. (Sleeping doesn't count.)

10. Go on dates. Don't feel like every date has to turn into a relationship.

11. Don't date someone your roommate has been in a relationship with.

12. When your friends' parents visit, include them. You'll get free food, etc., and you'll help them to feel like they're cool, hangin' with the hip college kids.

13. In the first month of college, send a hand-written letter to someone who made college possible for you and describe your adventures thus far. It will mean a lot to him/her now, and it will mean a lot to you in ten years when he/she shows it to you.

Bestie! I really wanna do this for you. *hearts* & *winks*

14. Embrace the differences between you and your classmates. Always be asking yourself, "what can I learn from this person?" More of your education will come from this than from any classroom.

15. All-nighters are entirely overrated. yesss totally!!!!

16. For those of you who have come to college in a long-distance relationship with someone from high school: despite what many will tell you, it can work. The key is to not let your relationship interfere with your college experience. If you don't want to date anyone else, that's totally fine! What's not fine, however, is missing out on a lot of defining experiences because you're on the phone with your boyfriend/girlfriend for three hours every day.

17. Working things out between friends is best done in person, not over email. (IM does not count as "in person.") Often someone's facial expressions will tell you more than his/her words.

18. Take risks.

19. Don't be afraid of (or excited by) the co-ed bathrooms. The thrill is over in about 2 seconds.

20. Wednesday is the middle of the week; therefore on wednesday night the week is more than half over. You should celebrate accordingly. (It makes thursday and friday a lot more fun.)

How true... =)

21. Welcome failure into your lives. It's how we grow. What matters is not that you failed, but that you recovered.

22. Take some classes that have nothing to do with your major(s), purely for the fun of it.

23. It's important to think about the future, but it's more important to be present in the now. You won't get the most out of college if you think of it as a stepping stone.

24. When you're living on a college campus with 400 things going on every second of every day, watching TV is pretty much a waste of your time and a waste of your parents' money. If you're going to watch, watch with friends so at least you can call it a "valuable social experience."

25. Don't be afraid to fall in love. When it happens, don't take it for granted. Celebrate it, but don't let it define your college experience.

26. Much of the time you once had for pleasure reading is going to disappear. Keep a list of the books you would have read had you had the time, so that you can start reading them when you graduate.

27. Things that seem like the end of the world really do become funny with a little time and distance. Knowing this, forget the embarassment and skip to the good part.

28. Every once in awhile, there will come an especially powerful moment when you can actually feel that an experience has changed who you are. Embrace these, even if they are painful.

29. No matter what your political or religious beliefs, be open-minded. You're going to be challenged over the next four years in ways you can't imagine, across all fronts. You can't learn if you're closed off.

30. If you need to get a job, find something that you actually enjoy. Just because it's work doesn't mean it has to suck.

31. Don't always lead. It's good to follow sometimes.

32. Take a lot of pictures. One of my major regrets in life is that I didn't take more pictures in college. My excuse was the cost of film and processing. Digital cameras are cheap and you have plenty of hard drive space, so you have no excuse.

33. Your health and safety are more important than anything.
Really true but just so stressed with school have been sick on and off for half a year... time to do something about this!!!

34. Ask for help. Often. HELP!!! Stats, MS and IEA, pretty please =D

35. Half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at any given moment. Way more than half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at some point in the next four years. Get used to it.

36. In ten years very few of you will look as good as you do right now, so secretly revel in how hot you are before it's too late.
Totally all you hot people out there ;) enjoy the youth!

37. In the long run, where you go to college doesn't matter as much as what you do with the opportunities you're given there. The MIT name on your resume won't mean much if that's the only thing on your resume. As a student here, you will have access to a variety of unique opportunities that no one else will ever have - don't waste them.

38. On the flip side, don't try to do everything. Balance = well-being.

39. Make perspective a priority. If you're too close to something to have good perspective, rely on your friends to help you.

40. Eat badly sometimes. It's the last time in your life when you can do this without feeling guilty about it.

41. Make a complete ass of yourself at least once, preferably more. It builds character.

42. Wash your sheets more than once a year. Trust me on this one.

43. If you are in a relationship and none of your friends want to hang out with you and your significant other, pay attention. They usually know better than you do.

44. Don't be afraid of the weird pizza topping combinations that your new friend from across the country loves. Some of the truly awful ones actually taste pretty good. Expand your horizons.

45. Explore the campus thoroughly. Don't get caught.

46. Life is too short to stick with a course of study that you're no longer excited about. Switch, even if it complicates things.

47. Tattoos are permanent. Be very certain.

48. Don't make fun of prefrosh. That was you like 2 hours ago.

49. Enjoy every second of the next four years. It is impossible to describe how quickly they pass.
A year has passed and i didnt really know how... but i pretty much loved my year 1. Lord please let me enjoy the remaining 3 in absolutely amazing way!

50. This is the only time in your lives when your only real responsibility is to learn. Try to remember how lucky you are every day.

Be YOURSELF. Create. Inspire, and be inspired. Grow. Laugh. Learn. Love.

Welcome to some of the best years of your lives.

arhhh marketing...

2010-09-23T01:52:00.000+08:00

praying hard that whatever knowledge i learnt in poly is retained in my brain so that at least tmr i go for my quiz, i wont flunk the paper U__________U

hahaha talking about that... i foresee flucking IEA even though its open book. SO MUCH reading to catch up on...

no time to practice Stats or MS...

FML

Im Still Holding On

2010-09-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

need to stop coughing... been waking up my mom =(

2010-09-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

cant sit through sieving 3 telecoms' annual report, segmenting the profit streams...headache... i need DINNER! =((((

2010-09-20T00:25:00.001+08:00

amidst all the work, all the stress and all the extra worries, troubles and woes... you put a smile on my face. =)

2010-09-16T01:41:00.003+08:00

need sleep
need play
need fun
need drink

Whennnnn??? WK 8 yo!!! persevere!!

Keane - Somewhere only we know

2010-09-12T01:52:00.003+08:00

I've been listening to this song for over two weeks ever since my younger sis introduced it to me. Keane's great singer, considering the keys that he can manage! Recently fell in love with Lifehouse...and his deep cool voice~, maybe i will throw in one song in my future posts! So far, keane's song evokes more emotion so i shall post it here. The melody for the following song is really soothing. =) I dun quite get the lyrics other than it being emo... some parts i can relate, some i cant. here goes!

One Republic - Secrets

2010-09-10T01:32:00.001+08:00

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

Til’ all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I’ve said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I’ve been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It’s like we’re chasing all those stars
Who’s driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don’t really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don’t let me disappear
I’mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

2010-09-03T16:55:00.002+08:00

The Allergy

I love this!

2010-09-01T01:38:00.002+08:00

난 그댈 만나 행복합니다
난 그댈 만나 꿈을 꿉니다

혹시 나와 같은 생각일까

C.N Blue – Sweet Holiday

~eLizabeTh ✿

2010-08-29T16:21:00.002+08:00

Management Science is so HARDDDDD =(

first time i do math subject, more than half my answers are WRONG! @_@ gg

2010-08-28T01:45:00.001+08:00

Y sis's love for classical music~ contagious, esp when she plays those wonderful pieces to wake me up during sunday mornings~ (feel the love~!!) Personally love chopin's style. enjoy peeps!

2010-08-26T00:22:00.001+08:00

woahhhh Hebe came up with her first own singles! o.O

saw Amy posted this on her fb wall... oozing emo-ness can~~~

2010-08-23T03:08:00.003+08:00

bossanova love~ ♥

Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Qu'll me parle tout bas
Je vois la vie en rose
Il me dit des mots d'amour
Des mots de tous les jours
Et ça m'fait quelque chose
Il est entré dans mon coeur
Une part de bonheur
Dont je connais la cause
C'est toi pour moi
Moi pour toi dans la vie
Tu me l'as dit, l'as juré, pour la vie
Et dès que je l'aperçois
Alors je sens en moi
Mon coeur qui bat

2010-08-18T02:17:00.005+08:00

day 1 of school

survived punctuation-less marketing class for one and half hour
grabbed quick bite
struggled in a battle of headache and droning of finance prof + project grouping war
won! tahan day 1 of school, rushed off to collect MS tb, buy IEA tb

chillax-ed with yushan + fruit mocktail at glassroom cafe

trodded home and prep for IEA readings tmr
died under the readings, gave up and plough through chapter 1 of IEA tb
complained to mom & sis for 15 mins
chiong-ed to PP for farewell dinner wif first 3 mth frens =D
loved dinner with my friends but had to bade good bye
reached home to open IEA tb.... gave up. fb, email, vista, msn, music....
stressed
stressed
stressed
thinking about the bottle of red wine sitting in the fridge
bathed... panic attack-ed... dinner down the drain...
unleashed complaints to bestie, angel and jy
blasted music, felt better.... wrote guidelines for CSP

Welcome linzt to SMU sem 2.1. day 1. fml

2010-07-28T00:59:00.002+08:00

tiredness & stress!!! the strain between my co-worker doesnt help much either...

Getting vulnerable by the day. no doubt summer has been AWESOME! mayb its way too much... though it pales in comparison to my peers... God help me!

2010-07-21T02:13:00.002+08:00

Remember how i started with Thomas Jefferson's quote the previous post? As determination to carry on the 101 things to do this summer, no time left to be idle anymore. Ever since i left my short stint at RBS, have been busy with business camp, project BOB involving heavy fundraising and training sessions(cip), project pangarap (ocip), settling renunciation of my msia citizenship, teaching assistant post, settling timetable.

i dont have space to pack more things into my calendar!! With project BOB coming to end, a bulk of my stress will dissipate. Following end July come early August, free from business camp, and all's left will be ocip, oath to commit to singaporean citizenship, prep for school and enjoy the remainder of my holidays.

Summer in US is akin to a dream life away from school. Although mine was primarily revolving around school, the thrill of making new friends makes my summer like a dream. It is just so satisfying to even overcome my fear of balloons through a cip! Summer is time where small wins lead to greater happiness.

Though currently im being bombarded by the work, and may even let it get to my mood sometimes... i shant give up... for all i know, the work i do may be the one that defines me/my interests. Training up to find the interest secretly tucked away that is far from my reach... but hopefully becomes nearer in time to come.

2010-06-20T00:57:00.002+08:00

Determine never to be idle. No person will have occasion to complain of the want of time who never loses any. It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing.
Thomas Jefferson

It's wonderful to pack my day to the brim! Morning with bondue camp dry run... testing out our crazy toilet bowl game~, followed up catch up with py & yushan, luncheon with bee yin, leeping & hsing (havent seen them all 2gether for about a year!!) and shopping trip at kino taka, far east & somerset 313 with best! Before shopping ended, i was SUPERRRR tired.

It is indeed wonderful to be able to do so many things today, that today was such a good day didnt go to waste! =) until i realize i haven bought the camp stuff for my darling sister who sprained her ankle and STILL going to OBS camp. GG.

Super worried for her, and apparently she doesnt understand coz she's too keen to go for it. I understand her excitement... but hopefully she understand our concerns in limiting her activities while she's there. And shopping subsequently transformed into a mad dash to find camp attire and ankle guard for her injury. In the end, took it out on best and myself... how smart~

Nevertheless, had the most wonderful-est time out! Coz doing so many things... and listening to stories from others... reflect and ponder about life... so many unanswered questions...

Do you want to know who you are? Don't ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you.
Thomas Jefferson

2010-06-13T22:41:00.005+08:00

Kudos to this bunch of people, who called my younger sis to drop a signal that they are going to drop by my house at 12 midnight without me finding out! =) my lovely bunch of frens! Vanilla Cake, Cockboard message, birthday balloons. BOOMS! at 12 mindnight. Before that i was enjoying good old, chill teevee session at home... and see them appearing at my doorstep was a really pleasant surprise!! And as i think back, two years back, my best fren did the same for me. It was an amazing feeling that the world hasnt forgotten about me at all. I'm grateful to be able to look back, and count each birthday that i've spend with my family and friends.

Bearry special bouquet and message board, handmade by yingbao and huiyun. Its unbelievable that we've graduated from poly for a year... walked down different paths... despite that, i still have you guys. =) thanks peeps for always being there.

And despite being a short visit to my place, i was touched beyond words... the best i could master was a string of "OMG" and hence i attained my new nick... OMG Queen. Thanks gals. This special night... will stay with me always. I cant imagine the effort you gals put through to coordinate and make this so wonderful for me. =) Its definitely something i will reminisce and love, wherever, whenever.

Trip to Sentosa beach on birthday itself! Chillax, picnic and teeny surprise from best and yb again! Hee a slip of "further" caught me attention.... knew that u were coming yb! muah hahax! But thank God you and lydia came, bring lots of laughter even amidst the mild drizzle. =) the peaceful day is much brighter if not for you gals!

TGIF with T.G.I.Fridays @ Heeren!

Finally managed to meet up with everyone i love~!

Tried buffalo wings after a long time! Luckily this time it wasnt spicy! ^^

The signature baby ribs there! I love the sweeet SAUCE!! my case of sweet tooth has worsen hahaha!

What a better way to celebrate this day with SWEET FONDUE from HAAGEN DAAZ!!

Just look at happiness from anticipation sia! It doesnt come cheap... but i am a UBBER happy girl as yb will put it =)

Thanks darlings, for planning and spending the wonderful day with me =) shall meet up soon again! ^^

2010-06-06T01:26:00.003+08:00

wheee~ most memorable saturday!!

Woke up after a good sleep, started washing the laundry, catch up with Mommie over brunch! Late with meeting best, coz tummyache! >< Today was a total treat day! Lunch treat, dinner treat~ <3

Xin wang cafe has superb seafood horfun! Touched by best coz it takes effort to research went all out to find a nice sushi place... and even with a short time together coz she had to rush off for core group cell after lunch, even if the suki sushi queue was crazily long, and we dun get to do what we set out to do/eat... i was a happy girl! ^^ sad thing is we were so immersed in our convo, we forgot to take pictures! =((( promise to bring my camera next friday~ even if its chui LOL! ^^ misses all you gals so muchie!

And rushed off to orchard library to bury myself in books... only to realized Orchard Library CLOSED DONKEY YEARS ago!!! =(((( but nvm, i managed to explore the huge art friend branch, artistic A'nBC bookshop and kinokuniya after a long while! time well spent =) it shall be my secret hiding place next time! ^^ lots of great finds in art friend at taka compared to the bras basah... where everything is in a total mess! Kino was filled with great magazines and strategy books, wasnt bored even though i was there for 2 hours. =) Even bought myself a Agness B magazine! LURVESS!!! guess i can nv get rid of the geeky side of moi. ;)

And went for Kevin's farewell dinner, before he flies of to Philippines! i reached there on time... only to find the rest gonna be late. So i swung by the central supermarket and the sticky candy shop that ai-hime and i use to visit! =) nostalgic shops!! kept lingering around till the security guard was kinda staring at me. LOL!

They all messaged me that they're gonna be super late... so typical of them... thankfully py "was in town" and said will meet me asap! =) who knew... when py and i got to riscotti, they were ALL THERE. o.O ended up they "cabbed and etc". lol... Riscotti is a fantastic italian restaurant with various 1-for-1 offers from monday to sunday! Tuesdays are the most worth it, 1-for-1 pizza! And they are legendary! <3 This is the pizzato that me and py shared! look at the yummy egg on the pizza!! Makes the whole taste less dry like normal skinny pizza. =)

Thankfully the awkward aura that has been looming the past weeks have disappeared. Half expected they are gonna say that everything has been a joke... i can continue to dream on. But i guess let time heal it all for them. =) nevertheless today was a 1-for-1 offer for wine. We kept ourselves busy with shan shan and kev red and high on wine... kinda got everyone's attention. Embarrassing ourselves in an atas restaurant by laughing and complaining about their bunch of crazy acts. Heck it! Let loose and chill on weekends!

Then when we were at Riverwalk building... the drunkards surprised me with a birthday cake~! awwwww~ =) and kev with his gift b4 he leaves for philippines! didnt realized it was a 2-in-1 celebration! Totally caught off guard and we just nua there eating cake, laughing ourselves crazy. People were walking by thinking whats this bunch of drunk people doing. After a while, we stop being obstruction to public and went to chill by the clarke quay river =) htht... ^^ the card they wrote was *melts* sweet. Photos of my gifts shall be unveiled on my day! And maybe even the card. =) I shall continue to reminisce the remaining of today. gnite people!

2010-06-02T02:20:00.004+08:00

too shagged to blog!! but cant resist after an awesome date with bestie at the legendary ALOY THAI! hahaha the one that my dear loanshark ex-colleague used to chase after. xD great thai food for reasonable price and friendly service. =D no pics coz we gobbled down everything b4 we rmbed! Definitely will be back for their FABULOUS green curry that was sold out by the time we got there. Tom palette's ice cream was dessert! Coconut mixed with glutinous rice + caramel, choc & funny childhood sizzling sweet ice cream combi... most unique i taste so far but soooooooo YUMMY... cant wait for chocolate sorbet flavour to be launched by this friday!!! Shall drop by for some 2 weeks later! ^^

a traumatic tuesday turned into a seemingly FUN & HAPPENING friday night. Just eating our food, dessert, hot chocolate, shopping and simply laughing ourselves silly. how i wish it really was friday.... dreading work...

politics in office is getting nasty! counting down~ 29 more days to freedom =D now its time to go to bed... my sexy hoarse voice is coming back. So much for getting well b4 21st.

2010-05-28T01:18:00.003+08:00

Why in the world did i pass out drinking night to sing ktv with my colleague. Im out of my mind!!!! If not for my cough, i would down half a bottle of wine already. =/ I paid almost $40 and totally didnt enjoy myself. I am disappointed in myself LOL...

My sis claims that i should entertain people, that's social networking... but seriously... putting up a pretentious front that i am having fun... is too hard. Not with them, gossiping and whispering in front of me. Just cut it out. How I wish i could just walked out but didnt want to make things sour. Not that putting up a sour face in front of them helped... oh well... maybe thats the way it works in the working world... but I just hate it when girls get bitchy... get a life!!! Cant wait for cough to be well, drinks anyone?

Perhaps a little alcohol would have helped just now... ahhh heck... i should get on with my life...

2010-05-24T01:32:00.002+08:00

it's hard seeing my friends torn apart, within a triangle, so hard to get out of it. Love... is complicated. Sometimes, the people makes it more complicated. Feels good saying it out. =) When it comes to friends, decisions seems much harder to make! Not for some... who feel its not fault that someone falls for them... but is it necessary to bring the guy's ego down together?

I'll do all it takes to get the friendship back together, meanwhile help to take care of the inflicted wounds... or should i remain oblivious, coz its none of my concern? idk anymore...

2010-05-23T02:31:00.003+08:00

Whee~!! Yesterday after meeting, went with V to shop at Vivocity LOL! Got a nice floral top at $19.90! And went shopping with mom, cotton-on at PP, there's a special 30% off this weekend! Bought one skirt, one top & one dress for $45.40! OMG... what a bargain. =D

Retail therapy does wonders! ^^v

Recently discovered this beautiful song~ how i wish i can say those wonderful words to all the friends and family i love every now and then. And find that special someone~ ;)

2010-05-20T00:23:00.002+08:00

Cough cough away~ work progress has been tardy cause of major transfer in the company. The list keeps changing; causing many disruption in work. sighh... but thank God the fever's gone, sore throat's gone. Mood has become much better too...

Though most of the time i cant shake of the feeling of having no direction despite being occupied in many events. Being busy is not what i really wanted... i wanted to have a fulfilling holiday... not busy. But maybe busy is part of fulfilling? lolx... As things slowly take on a better turn... there are still undone mess to be sorted out... gg

re-discovered a Jap song that i liked last year. =) enjoy~

2010-05-17T01:08:00.002+08:00

things on a lighter note~! Church was a g8 time of reflection today, marks one year of my confirmation. Perhaps its time to be involved in the school catholic's group and stop giving myself excuses already. =)

had a fun time hanging out with p,y and a. No doubt i feel their awkwardness, it was fun hearing about the drinking chaos in vietnam... the puking, the vodka and hangovers. i am just glad i didnt have to go through it all, just being bz and emo in singapore. =)

people have been asking me about how i am gonna celebrate my 21st... i have thought about it over the past year whenever it crosses my mind... man! i still have no idea. just planning of a few dinners with close friends. sometimes i envy people who can throw parties or chalet coz i dunt have the luxury. But still... should make the best out of it nonetheless.

Dinner with bestie and comfy group, trying to pull in zm for a night of chillax at the usual place of baileys =) maybe event with biz law peeps... the thought that i gotta spent the eves of my 21st in school for cip just really sux... but cant be helped, make the best of it. tempted to go drink with jy... but still thinking about it... still owe him his thumbdrive lar. what about dinner at home sia? idk... seems like if i wanna make the day special, i gotta plan it out myself~

laaaa and i heard from p that they got me kenzo or rather senzo poppies from vietnam! ahhh cant wait to see that perfume sia! USD 10 only.... wheee! been thinking of it for a long time already wah hahahaha happiness.. time to sleep so can chiong work tmr sia! gnite peeps! ☆

2010-05-16T02:33:00.003+08:00

i see you appearing then dodging into emptiness. how i rehearsed in my mind countless times... its just clicking a button... there's a 101 reasons for me not to... and i am defeated. the words that trail are the last things that i ever want to see, i hope for those to be your facade. God... take me away from this. it stinks when the last things u see before u head to bed are those nasty stuff that u dunt need to know and shouldnt see.

2010-05-16T01:28:00.002+08:00

busy day... even on weekends... kinda numbs your brain cause the whole saturday, u are still working on that proposal, on that cip, and planning ur uni journey over fren's 21st birthday party, thinking about the files waiting for you on beautiful monday morning.

will life be any better if things were slightly different? If i had more passion for the things i am doing? more passion for living and more passion for loving those around me?

jeremy simple answer to why he wasnt going to run for sports camp comm when he simply passionate about the cca takes me aback. it all boils down to one word: passion.

passion keeps the fire burning. have i been over-rationalizing everything to the point that whats left is the wispy smoke whilst candles light up all around me... that's a food for thought.

2010-05-15T01:57:00.003+08:00

no matter how often i tell myself to move on, i just cant do it on fridays. each time a painful reminder of the mistake i made, the endless possibilities that could have been real. the irony is the more i tell myself to forget, the more i think of ... sinking deeper...

get away... get busy... get sick...

but when time stand still, the truth remains...

2010-05-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

i wonder how gene tahan her frequent fevers. getting brain fried for 2 days enough to drive me nuts. I cant work, cant sleep, cant eat (well) and just no mood to do anything and everything. Which is damn bad... coz have piles of work waiting. Everyday after work just wanna nua at home...

2010-05-09T02:04:00.003+08:00

Steve aoki wasnt as great as i imagined... turning up late, slow beats. I guess gotta not only do you need to party with the right crowd, but also to the proper grooves. =) well it'd be a long time till the next one~ school's getting in the way of my vacation but still gotta make time for some good ole community service =)

2010-05-07T02:08:00.005+08:00

u know what? the most epic thing happened today.

It's been a week since mysterious "cobie" appeared on my msn favourite list... and i TOTALLY dont recall any of my friend name "cobie". The picture looks funny... like some hot chick. The email address looks remote, i thought my dearest laptop have succumbed to an unknown, strange virus. Last friday when i was down, half drunk, "cobie" came to talked to me.

I put my personal message as "Not Myself Tonight" and she said.
Cobie: Hi girl
Cobie: is everything all right?
Cobie: what happened?
Cobie: im so sorry wasnt free to talk to you
eLizabeTh: hey....
eLizabeTh: im not really myself tonight
eLizabeTh:guess i need some time to chill and sort my emotions out.
eLizabeTh: thanks for the concern though
eLizabeTh: not sleeping?
Cobie: soon.
Cobie: but what exactly happened?... sounds serious?
eLizabeTh: just feeling emo and all, dun wanna think about it now...
Cobie: u sure?
eLizabeTh: yea
Cobie: i'll try to get back to you soon within the weekend k? tc!

After that i was damn puzzle. Who the hell is this person... talking to me @_@ so concern somemore... WEIRD.... And ... Today "Cobie" talked to me again!

Cobie: Hey! doing work?
eLizabeTh: hey babe~ just surfing
Cobie: Im not babe! i am Babi!
eLizabeTh: honestly... i've been thinking... how did we know each other?
Cobie: you mean us?
eLizabeTh: yea
Cobie: LOL! how can u forget? rmb tcc?
eLizabeTh: [thinks about the tcc, tea coffee cannoseiur] .... honestly, i cant. when was that?
Cobie: duh! during orientation!!
eLizabeTh: [thinks hard abt all uni orientation... shit... i dunt know any cobie] omggggg
Cobie: hahaha... but i could only rmb lydia though you were sitting beside me.
Cobie: you reminded me again that when we were in the same class in sem 2.2
eLizabeTh: are u seriouss?? [WHO IS COBIE!!! I GOT NO CLASSMATE CALLED COBIE!]
elizabeTh: i have so rotten memoryyyyyyyyy hahahaha long lost fren!
Cobie: hahaha more like u put ur memory to better use than me...

at this point, i was damn freaked out, how the hell she knew lydia, know i am her sem 2.2 classmate and i have no idea who the hell she is!!! damn confused, and paiseh for forgetting a fren... super frustrated... not sure what to do until... the bomb landed.

Cobie: ... so do u know who i am?
eLizabeTh: [thinking, sharks! I DONT KNOW WHO U ARE!!!] hmmmm honestly i have very vague memories of u??? u were my 2.2 classmate?
Cobie: ... im yingbao lei

eLizabeTh: HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Cobie: what talking u?
eLizabeTh: ARE YOU SERIOUS?
eLizabeTh: OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Cobie: Ya!!!
eLizabeth: WHY THE HELL ARE U COBIEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Cobie: dont the dp look like me?
eLizabeTh: hahaha
Cobie: hahahahahaha!!!
eLizabeTh: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Say hi to Cobie aka ying bao... and the funniest thing? i met her just 2 hours ago for a long 3 hour chat. She was damn puzzle why i asked her how's life... hahaha coz we chatted at length beforehand. She thought i lost my mind after being emo HAHAH... if she didnt tell me who she was, i probably would. ;) that gal changed her email add, display pic, even her NAME! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO RECOGNISE HER! oh well~ epic PHAILLLL ... brought lots of laughter to us. =)　　☆

2010-05-05T01:28:00.003+08:00

unearthly hour, still awake! but guess? (recently, i enjoy making people guess stuff)

i stumbled upon Sop 2 blog, for real!!! I didnt even know it existed! omg... syaf has been so sweet to do it up with nice sop 2 logo and hearts... my gosh... a lot of effort there. I could only smile to the advice she gave for each of the choirs song listed. Though repetitive, i could imagine how she'd say it to the section. =) dedication for you, people!

2005, 5 years ago... wonderful memories~

2010-05-05T00:56:00.005+08:00

Just completed The Client, a thriller by John Grisham. Am simply too excited to sleep!! After a glance into of Mark Sway week-long journey, i have to say this 11 year old boy has a ingenious mind and remarkable courage! Being held hostage by a suicidal lawyer, discovering the truth of where the senators body was hidden, seen the same man put a bullet through his mouth and having the entire FBI, state of n. Orleans at his tail... i don't think i could muster half the courage he has to pull through the ordeal. He's innocent witness who've seen something he hasn't and lands with evidence to uncover the death of a really important person! The dilemma comes where revealing the location of the senator's body would endanger his family.

The author makes a fabulous setting where the boy is "the Man" of the family unit, where divorced Mom goes out to work and Mark cares for his brother. His maturity helps him pull through the obstacles of his younger brother going into psychiatric trauma - unable to talk, Mom losing her job while caring for the younger one, and being targeted by the FBI and the Mafia.

It's been a long while since i picked up fiction books, and i enjoyed it tremendously. Enough of non-fiction and business books! =D Well, if thrillers/FBI/crime-scene/law is your thing, you should totally pick that off the library shelf because its such a page-turner!! Time to chill, read a book and enjoy the long summer vacation ahead!

If tmr's meeting for overseas cip trip goes well, i could be home early to start on Harry Potter! ☆

PS. Just discovered the new blogskin looks nicer on my old laptop than fujitsu because of the larger resolution. =D but the font looks kinda weird when they are so large... it appears like font size 9 or 10 on my fujitsu. =/

2010-05-04T23:12:00.006+08:00

Working has become more dreadful!!! If not for an awesome (& expensive =x) lunch treat at Japanese restaurant by my supervisor, i would go into mourning already!!! =) and i managed to uncover some exclusive information... that will make anyone gag... come ask me about it. Suddenly, i have a burning desire to get my name on dean's list. Krazieeee thought... OMG.

Went for a jog and totally couldnt catch my breath, time to train up my stamina and perseverance!! =) it will come into good use when i chiong the harry potter book i owe Best for YEARS LOL! time to catch ☆　before that, shall leave you people with a song~

お休み「ｇｎiｔe」!

2010-05-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

Starting anew again~

Work's getting more dreadful when i cant meet the demanding targets set by my boss despite hitting those of my own. I gave my best shot~ even though half the time my mind was wandering off~

During the evening, I met up with my facilitator over Starbucks and talked about planning for retirement and our goals in life. It was through our conversation that i realised my finances are in quite jia lat condition. Its time to borrow some book on financial planning~ apparently all my poly knowledge has been throw out the door! LOL... after i am done with my last few chapters of john grisham's the client!!!

A recent song release that i wanna share~ will someone grant me my wish? bedtime ~☆

2010-05-02T15:23:00.000+08:00

no more regrets... its time to move on with life

2010-04-30T01:13:00.001+08:00

2010-04-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

ahhh bzbzbz!

work's been cool so far~ like the amazing vending machine! interesting colleagues... weird higher ups and oh welll work....

God has blessed me so abundantly, shall press on!!! =)

2010-04-16T03:47:00.000+08:00

Before i even finish my exams, before i start work, before i get my pay...

I promise i wont splurge my SALARY!!!!

time to save up for rainy days like today =P

2010-04-14T19:59:00.001+08:00

2010-04-12T02:48:00.002+08:00

Read this off mr brown's blog... its EPIC! haha

Bolo Santosi of Just Cause 2: A Singaporean accent in a US game?

" Bolo Santosi is quickly becoming a cult figure in the gaming world, with her terrible voice acting, campy dialogue and the all-powerful Singaporean accent. In fact she sounds like a Masters of the Sea reject (a very old Singapore tv series known for its badness).

This stuff is so bad, it is good.

Who is the voice of Bolo Santosi? The world wants to know! "

See original post at Mr Brown's blog.

2010-04-11T03:02:00.001+08:00

it seems like during exam period, everyone's pretty stressed up.

I didnt know my stress is so influential! My family is more easily irritated and usually have their annual/half annual quarrels during my study week! What coincidence!

2010-04-10T03:54:00.000+08:00

cant believe i have to resort to this to lessen the pain. heck. so be it.

2010-04-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

Recently cant sleep at night, think its the stress from school. Little stress bug been running round my mind. And i thought of 2012 song by adam lambert. =)

2010-04-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

oh yay! almost done with TWC, left the 2 chapters of readings and 3 lectures. Know what, i shall leave it till the weekends. MOVING ON~ FA! cant wait to practice all the questions coz it probably will be more enjoyable than READINGS and MORE READINGS =P

collecting passport tmr, pray hard immigrations dont have a crazy queue =)

2010-04-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

This is a bad time to be blogging... but i shall do it nonetheless.

Lesson learnt, time flies and its the end of school.
Starry night was a great time to let hair down and savour the last of Screme (a cafe at SMU which is closing down tmr)With guest bands and SMU bands... the music was average, but the company had been good. Been a while since i've seen biz law people. And i do feel bad for not hanging out with them and avoiding them to untangle myself into something i didnt like. Yet... one of my good fren, didnt know she had been down for the whole semester, and i didnt have the time to console her... and i made her cry today unintentionally. i feel bad.

It made me think about how time is always against me, and i cant be there for every single one of them. Helpless, as human. Guilty, as human. People too, make mistakes. Yet i do treasure every single one of them, i want to be there for them, but i couldnt. I know i shouldnt be guilty, coz afterall she didnt share with me her woes... but her burden is too huge to bear. Shall be praying for them, and the rest of my friends that i have neglected.

End of school term, Thank God for being with me through all my trials. =)

2010-03-29T15:33:00.002+08:00

Stone!!! Dont feel like starting work.... stuck in school right now with zm~ but the rain's kinda alleviating the monday blues.....

Even though it will all be over in 4 days... but just cant stand the wait, the pressure. I just wish to give up on some hopeless group members. But the fact that my grades go down along with them... its just distasteful, knowing that my fate is in other people's hands....

cant wait for thursday to come!!!! the irony is i am looking forward to the wrongs things during the Holy Week. Haix... but i cant help it. =/

2010-03-24T01:32:00.000+08:00

Love this tune!!! so hooked onto it, bitter ♥

2010-03-23T01:03:00.004+08:00

Appreciating Daily Miracles

"If there's one skill we all undoubted effortlessly excel at... it's taking things for granted."
-Eugene Loh

Daily miracles occur every single second in our lives. We have to be thankful for the air we breathe, the work we are doing, the people around us, or even just being able to wake up each day. All these seem cliche and trivial at times because we take it for granted. People have the tendency to get tired of simple things and find fault with what they have.

"We're inclined to focus on our problems and ignore our blessings. But the very fact that you are walking, talking, breathing, tasting, and touching is a miracle in itself! ... Most people are so busy waiting for miracles to happen that they fail to notice the ones occurring right under their noses."

That probably summarized my day.

Too stuck on accomplishing the tasks i set out to do, and ignore the possible time i could spend with best. Guilty.

Too busy with school and friends to help out with mom, sis and housework. Guilty.

Too busy with everything else to be grateful for what i have. Guilty.

The buzz has made me re-think my priorities once again. Why does life offer such difficult choices for us to make? Time is short. Yet, both hesitating and jumping into a decision present equally stressful experiences for me. That fear is something i've not overcome.

But i guess, when you have to do it, you've gotta do it.

And so i did some soul searching and ... i find that i'm still not happy with the way i'm living life. no idea how to solve this complex puzzle... but just gotta go on.

2010-03-19T01:46:00.002+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Finally have the time to blog!!! After like donkey years or what!?!?

I CLEARED 3 ASSIGNMENTS!!!! i cant believed how i lived during the past week!! It was assignment then presentation then assignement plus quizzes and tutorials. WOAH! thanks for Best's prayers ever!! =P

Its living on the edge everyday. 2-4 hours sleep. work. work. class. work and WORK. Just grateful for the fun times, and even if its a short high tea session with Best, hokee pao meet up with yb ... i am a happy girl. I makes me feel that at least i have a life besides school.

I miss you gals so much!!! meet up soon yea? Bedok 85 FTW!!!

2010-03-14T04:08:00.004+08:00

Continue pushing my limits

lets wait and see what prevails

what values remain?

i shall be apathetic, before they all crumble in your midst.

2010-03-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

10 weeks into school

Tracing the steps i've taken...

I see Accomplishments... Failures...

Joy... sadness... emptiness...

In the blind pursuit of ideals, only to be disappointed.

Time for reality to sink in =)

2010-03-09T00:08:00.003+08:00

Prof... can i hate you for being forgetful?
Sending us notification on our 10% quiz 13 hours before it?
I was woken up by j's phone call to study for your quiz!
Almost had a heart attack... should have seen it coming...

Seriously it doesnt help that i've got 2 presentations and 2 assignments
within this week... 2 of which is the result of your poor planning!

the only consolation is the illustrated strunk & white i borrowed the wk
b4... so at least i got pictures to look at while studying grammar.

prof i love you your classes, your jokes. but your laziness is killing me....

2010-03-07T04:32:00.011+08:00

First post from my new laptop lazzy!

Beside it is a spinning new green coconut USB Fan!! Courtesy of
elder sis! Hard to imagine, i know. Pic for reference!

No longer lonely during late nights pjt chionging, there's the humming
USB fan to entertain me HAHAHAHA. Even now... as i think of how to
take picture of the fan is keeping me going at 4.45am! o.O

Besides new gadgets, hanged out with best, yb & xl yesterday!!! WHEE!

From bugis to Laselle to Dhoby Ghaut!
Pastas + fish & chips + dessert + B&J (double dessert ^^).

Catch ups, gossips, complaints & everything girlie. Jump shots that
madeus look silly, feel silly and LOL. =) Having fun comes naturally
with you gals. You peeps made me forget about all the work piling up
at home.Just wanna dress up, make up coz meeting you all is always
a happy occasion. =)

After 3 scoops of B&J Ice cream! Freezing cold, but yummy =D

Best's successful attempt to capture pics with Iphone!

BEST photographer ever ;)

Its really wonderful, how Best brings out the best in me. Be it my mood,
my strengths, character, habits (yes!), when i am down. She does
awesome stuff even when taking my pictures with her Iphone! =)

I wonder if its been very long since people saw me like this? Had
pleasant comments from people i would least expect! Its surprising
and unbelievable. Perhaps coz i feel i am surrounded by prettier
people in school! Even so, i'm reminded again that we are all God's
creation, each of us beautiful in our own way. Thank you God for
making me the way i am. =) Thank you Best, or i wouldnt have
learnt that. =)

You gave me the greatest fun i had in weeks. =)

2010-03-02T22:20:00.004+08:00

so happy that gene dropped by aljunied today

she jio-ed me for short dessert break

even the taste of Mcflurry is rewarding =)

simple pleasures of life forgotten...

and it takes you by surprise when you re-discovers them

why is life so complicated?

going round and round only to find themselves back to the origin

I wouldnt mind if it's fun like the merry-go-round

well maybe it's like the merry-go-round... the dizzy part that makes you wanna throw up

World Behind My Wall

It's raining today
The blinds are shut
It's always the same
I tried all the games
that they play
But they made me insane

Life on tv
It's random
It means nothing to me
I'm writing down
What I cannot see
Wanna wake up in a dream

Oh
They're telling me
its beautiful
I believe them
but will I ever know
The world behind my wall

Oh
The sun will shine
like never before
One day I will be
ready to go
See the world behind my wall

Trains in the sky
Are travelling
through fragments of time
They're taking me to
parts of my mind
That no one can find

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl
on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel

Oh
They're telling me
it's beautiful
I believe them
but will I ever know
The world behind my wall
Oh
The sun will shine
like never before
One day I will be
ready to go
See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl
on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel

Take me there!
Take me there!
Take me there!

Oh
They're telling me
it's beautiful
I believe them
But will i ever know
The world behind my wall

2010-03-01T14:35:00.003+08:00

After 7 hours of crazy shopping session with my elder sis last night,
finally found time to clear my personal inbox today.

And i this is something i read off the 938 fm's daily feed.

"Have confidence that with patience, practice and perseverance,
we can manifest the change we seek."

Top that with faith, i think one can achieve beyond greater self-sufficiency.

2010-02-27T02:04:00.004+08:00

20

The transition from teenage years to adulthood

For some its the alluring

freedom, drinks, parties, romance

For others its the moment of truth

work, school, friendship, kinship, direction

For me, i am enjoying the sense of liberation, to do what i like.
Just like how i am feasting on a tub of rich chocolate ice-cream at 2am.
Just heavenly.

2010-02-26T03:22:00.004+08:00

I avoid some people on purpose
I hate the way I look most of the time
I actually like the way I look most of the time
I’ve been swimming in an ocean
I’ve been swimming in a lake
I have a sibling
I have pets
I’ve been on vacation recently
I love meeting new people
I am insanely shy
I’m on a sports team
My best friend is a boy
I play a musical instrument
I don’t remember the last time I mailed a letter
I talk on the phone almost every night
I drink milk almost every day
I’ve kissed someone in a bathroom
I’ve kissed someone in bed
I’ve kissed someone at school
I’ve kissed someone I just met
I’ve kissed a good friend
I like to read
I like to watch tv
I couldn’t care less about video games
I hate my mom and dad
I’ve had a crush on someone for 5+ years
I’ve never asked someone out
I can touch my nose with my tongue
I love pizza
I actually love going grocery shopping
I love to travel
I’ve been to another continent
I wish I had time to watch more movies
I miss being a little kid
I’ve been to a public pool recently
Summer is my favorite time of the year
Winter is my favorite time of the year
I have a favorite holiday
I have a favorite holiday other than Christmas
I’ve been to a concert recently
I drive
I have my own car
My room is almost always messy
I’m listening to music right now
Music helps me work
The last person I texted was a boy
I want a new phone really bad
I love cartoons
The last thing I drank was water
I used to play with barbies
I collect something
I’ve been to a carnival recently
I know what syncopation is
I need to charge my phone
I have a huge crush on someone right now
I’ve kissed someone within the last 24 hours
I’m still in my pajamas
I have to go to school tomorrow
I need to clean something
I’ve hurt myself on purpose
I’ve thrown up on purpose
I’ve broken a bone
I’ve eaten something weird
I’m an extremely picky eater
I’ve been out to eat recently
I love going to the mall
I hate big groups
I remember the last party I went to
I’m on the phone right now
I’m watching tv right now
I’m eating right now
I’m on the phone, watching tv, and eating right now
People say I’m funny
People say I’m pretty
I need new clothes really badly
My hair is up right now
I need to shave my legs
I remember the last time I went to the doctor
I actually use my locker at school
I get good grades (subjective... haha good is never good enough!)
I have a MySpace
I showered last night
I spy with my little eye something that is green
I spy with my little eye something that is round
I spy with my little eye something that is broken
I’ve had surgery
Someone I know has died
Someone I know has had cancer
It’s past my bedtime
I’ve moved before
I’ve moved 4+ times
I’ve gotten something removed
People tell me that I have good hair
People tell me that they like my clothes
I wish I had some money right now
I have a job
I need a job
I actually got a stupid class ring
I’m listening to someone talking right now
I wish I could talk to the boy I like right now
I’ve kissed someone in front of my parents
I’ve kissed someone on New Year’s
I love Halloween
I remember the last time I tripped
I can see a picture of me from where I’m sitting
I can see my reflection from where I’m sitting
I’m kinda scared of the dark
It’s hard to sleep with the door open
It’s hard to sleep without a blanket
It’s morning
I played soccer when I was little
I played basketball when I was little
My ears are pierced
My belly button is pierced
I plan on going to college
I plan on getting married
I plan on having some kids
I babysit
I still get an allowance
I curse a lot
I got so drunk last night
I’ve been to a wedding recently
I’ve met someone special on vacation
I have an accent
I know someone who has been homeschooled
I know someone in a band
I can sing really well
I can dance really well
I’ve never slow danced with anyone
I suck at spelling
I suck at maths
I recycle
I am pro-choice
I know some rednecks
I want to get a tattoo
I want to get a new piercing
I hate MTV and VH1
I miss an ex
I still love an ex
I’ve slapped someone
I’ve punched someone
I’ve been told that I have a nice butt
I think my boobs are too small
I wish I could lose some weight
I can play the guitar
I can speak another language
I am fluent in another language
I can play the piano
I’ve been told that I can’t dance
I’m a cheerleader
I have a sweet tattoo
I have a sweet facial piercing
I need to practice something
I want to go to Mexico
I want to go to Canada
I’ve traveled across the country
I live on the east coast
I went to the beach last summer
I remember the last time I was insanely sunburned
I like to waste time
I like to sleep
I think I’m going to get asked out soon
I keep a journal
I don’t remember the last dream I had
I think smoking cigarettes is gross
I’m wearing something that belongs to someone else
My mom fixed the last meal I had
I’ve never gotten my nails done
I should be doing homework right now
I’m adopted
I love sappy movies
I love horror movies
I love musicals
I’ve seen a broadway show
The last person I hugged was my mom/dad
All of my grandparents are alive
I miss my boyfriend
I haven’t talked to my best friend all day
People tell me that I’m short
Sometimes my socks don’t match
I can’t wait till my birthday
I’m a procrastinator
I’m not like everyone else
I like strawberries
I like thunderstorms
Someone’s mad at me right now
I hate when people are rude
I’m an optimist
My first relationship ended badly
I love when boys hold doors open
I’ve kissed 2+ people in one day
I’ve had a boy sleep over at my house
I bite my nails
I’ve been caught doing drugs
I’ve been caught cheating
I haven’t been to Disneyland/Disneyworld
I’ve passed out from drinking
I get angry easily
I’m laid back
I hate most girls
I love getting new shoes
I hate Chinese food
I don’t remember the last time I was grounded
I’ve been in love before
I’ve been cheated on
There are certain songs that remind me of my ex
I straighten my hair more often than I should
I’ve been to a funeral this year
I am insanely hungry right now

2010-02-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

Things have taken for a better turn ever since i completed my BGS assignment.

Gawd, the blood-sucking assignment totally ruled my mind. =/ no wonder the pressure, struggle and conflicts siah.... self-inflicted injury. LOL

Anyways, got some free time to visit the mummies, surf Zipia, stone, dine & catch movie with py, alvin & ys. The shit stirrers... lol. Shall remain oblivious and stone like how people suan me last time =D

Hopefully i will be free enough to go shopping with my elder sis on saturday!! =D whee omg... i feeling so stone... cant believe theres meeting tmr afternoon.... gawd...... my research is still very raw.... how am i going to cook something out tmr! >< shall start preparing .... ciao~

2010-02-22T23:01:00.005+08:00

Gotta stop that anger brewing

being angry at others
others being angry with me
and me getting angrier at others...

when will it ever end?

The ultimate selfish tug of war... forlorn of hope

gawd school is taking me so much time,
i might as well get married to SMU.

2010-02-21T02:15:00.001+08:00

F.O.C.U.S.

^^

2010-02-20T15:55:00.004+08:00

Life's been going downhill more than anything ever since wk 6 for no good reason...
How i wish i can just deal with it... perhaps as the weeks pass by, i'm find myself enjoying lesser of school. Counting down to end of April... give me a break!!!!

"Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of YOU."
Wally Amos

"The unexamined life is not worth living."
Socrates

"Treasures are claimable in Heaven."
Angel

Yesterday heard a funny song about singlish by some America R&B singer that made my day. =) Really wanted to share with you peeps but i cant find the song on youtube as yet. hee... shall go comb for that song ^^

For now... this is my fav =)

Whataya Want From Me

Adam Lambert | MySpace Music Videos

2010-02-16T16:11:00.006+08:00

Happy new year!! 3 days late already ...

I was busy doing last minute spring cleaning on CNY eve cause i had all the projects cramming to the last days of my week 6. Guilty... HAHA... and i still went out on Friday to see Shan's band concert & celebrate the end of her misery!! ^^ had a fun time chilling at timbre with the live band playing after her band perf at VCH =) Its been so long since i went VCH, brought back fond memories of going choir performances during secondary school with Best, PG and Yi-an. =) miss them =)

And due to my idiot-ism, i blurted out something that should be kept for myself. Man... i am always at the losing end of truth/dare when i play with my frens. =.= Thanks to this great people, i have been thinking about idiotic things for the past few days. That explains why accounting homework took 3 days of my CNY to finish (besides spending time in front of the tv) !!!

I should just shut up and concentrate on my studies... One of the project grades came back with a B...... having pro people in class just put us at a major disadvantage... =( time to work on individual assignment to push it up!!! i got a feeling, i might flunk my previous accounting quiz coz i came in 10 minutes late... and my BGS quiz score is dropping. I know i sound like a freak ranting all my grades... its just a constant reminder to tell me i need to maintain my GPA! grr.

To make matters worse, my ocip stuff doesnt seem to be going well... superficial people in my group... how am i going to pull it through... especially when i am going to spend my two weeks with these people. Fainted. Maybe i should have just backed out... let me find that courage to continue on from where i have started =)

As u can see, holiday means more free time to think about nonsense... maybe i should hurry up and go back to school. I just might regain my sanity that way =)

Late uploads taken at jx and 3sas bday party... pretty blur... shall use the back camera of my phone next time... the front one cannot make it. LOL

2010-02-10T00:43:00.004+08:00

Reflective mood~

I have grown appreciative of my placing in SMU. The gift to be able to study a relevant course, despite the steep fees. Although people have called me naive to have bought the branding created by the school, I've my reasons. It boils to which school can provide me with the holistic education, beyond knowledge, skills, but as a person too. No doubt the future is uncertain, and 5 years from now, I may not be where I envisioned myself to be, I shall press on... and treasure this place that so many others had fought for.

Glad that i've come up with a purpose ever since i began this sem. It has been my driving force ever since, something that i use to whack myself whenever i slacken. Took me 1 sem to realise that i need to buck up and STUDY. Better late than never =P

I guess with more positive outlook, efforts get more focused towards a purpose. So far so good, 1 month into the year and school has been rather kind with me. I've got team up with fantastic people for all my project groups, except for one. =x This people just keeps me going =)

After 1 week of serious slogging in school! Tired but happy! =) This are the people that took care of my welfare, my meals, my emo-ness in week 5 =) blame it on our cute TWC prof. hahaha... we chiong project until panda eyes!!

After TWC presentation! Happiness and relief =) Great job peeps =)

MC peeps! Like what others say, we kinda look like school band members, but heck it! Fighters of homosexuality! ;)

Prospective Financial Analysts after digesting 200 pages of Priceline report! And providers to my future FA answers HAHAHAHA

Even so, I cant help but feel the recurring negativity from a few years back. How can I trust, just let go and know that what i've been fighting to protect will continue to be mine? I can only pray that they wont slip away...

2010-02-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

Restless-ness

No more presentations~!!! Or at least till a month later -> BGS.
Having completed 3 presentations in the past 2 weeks or so, cant help but to feel like SLACKING! hahaha... no mood to do my MC assignment due this thursday, so i can forget about starting BGS summary thats due next thursday HAHAHA...

I've tried. Really. I've eaten great dinner, soya sauce & ginger chicken drumstick - delicious i tell you, 1 bar of chocolate and 1 cup of milo. Now resisting temptation to reach into the cookie jar for a pineapple tart which i swore off coz i ate four yesterday. LOL... some one please give me an antidote to cure restless-ness LOL!

I still got no mood to do MC..... ahhhhhh... not even President Obama can save my MC assignment now. HAHAHA.... but... the 25%... gotta focus and nail it! grrr shall go back to work

2010-02-06T01:46:00.002+08:00

THANK GOD FOR AMERICA! Specifically, President Obama, cause he helped me with my MC speech on next tuesday! =D

Yesterday had been a HECTIC day! In fact the past few days had been HECTIC week of chionging TWC like there's no tmr. In fact, after today, there's no more TWC chionging =P

AWESOME! hahaha ^^ but before that, let me first pull through my first hurdle... wake up in time for presentation at 7am. Presentation at 8.30am and meeting at 3pm... then i can really be HAPPY!!!!

Thank God my formal wear is IRONED! =D night people!

2010-02-05T01:12:00.002+08:00

non-functioning brain, droopy eyes, slowed reaction... i'm not drinking, I'M LACKING SLEEP!! grah!!! still got stuff to chiong out... pia wn pia!!!!! after saturday things will get SLIGHTLY better. omg...

BUT hahaha chionging usually pays off, when i saw my AWESOME FA GRADES. A!!!! wah hahaha super duper HIGHHHHH and PROUD OF THE TEAM!! ^^ what hideous days was that, analysing EITF, FRS 18 and reading Priceline's omg report. HAHA =D if not for KT, Viv and WT... wahh hahaha it would be a TORTURE. We pulled through it! WITH AN A SOMEMORE!!!

Let's hope for TWC 2 projects that unfortunately clash together and is due today, one at 6pm, another at 12am tmr. We can pull through those two with at least a B. Although prof's comments hasnt been great... shall pray hard for good results =)

AND i am so dead for next tuesday MC presentation, AND MC outline due next thurs, AND BGS assignment due NEXT NEXT THURSDSAY!!! but after this 3 things... my remaining weeks shall be GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!! And i will be enjoying life by then... keep in mind =D

2010-02-04T02:46:00.002+08:00

At this unearthly hour, i know i should be asleep, but sleep is still a little far away... No doubt i have projects waiting for me, i couldnt resist the temptation to play the typing game to calculate my wpm. =D 91 wpm. on my third try but still v proud of it =D haha

almost finished with a portion of my projects =) no doubt it started of shaky, but hope we can end it well with a bang! =D cant wait for our celebration on 18 feb =D marks the end of all our major assignments at SMU =)

whee ... ^^ shall go bathe and do work already. =) love

2010-02-01T00:27:00.003+08:00

heyo!

School's getting bz-ier and bz-ier!! Running against time is a very scary thing...

Cant wait for it to be over!! =(

Recently been emo... cant really ctrl... sighhh!!!

Hope everything will turn out fine =)

2010-01-27T23:43:00.001+08:00

where can i find a safety deposit box that can lock my sorrows away?

somewhere i can tuck it away so no one else need to experience it again....

2010-01-27T00:11:00.004+08:00

after so many days of financial accounting project, really sian of the report. Now its just the last stage of coming up with slides... really not motivated! my assignment last week also last minute, if not for my elder sis idea, wouldnt have scored B+. Thank God for ur Amazing Grace too =) hahaha

Ended up watching charlie chaplin which my prof likes to show in class, fb... and doing random things like watching movie to study for my assgnmt and BLOGGING.

hahaha! inappropriate time but.... no other ways to relieve the stress...

Just gotta keep reminding myself of the SUPER DUPER high workload.

5 feb: twc innovation project - making sports shoes
6 feb: twc presentation on ideas development
supposedly to have twc assignment 2 submission but negotiated prof to postpone it
8 feb: MC speech on homosexuality
11 feb: MC written assignment on memo
17 feb: BGS 24 page reading summary into 2 pages

endless routine of 10am wake up, sleep at 4am. recently have been randomly reading facebook astrology app, and past few days my "lucky time" is like 4am, 2am... haha which is quite true....coz thats when i zzz. YAY.

haha praying for mid term break to come!! so busy until i no mood to blog! GONNA HANG OUT HAVE FUN IN WK 8! PROMISE! and also catch up with bad lot. LOL... for TWC and BGS especially... and practice for FA so i can get A+!!!!!

2010-01-24T01:59:00.001+08:00

The idea of blogging in druken stupor always appealed to me somehow...

Trying to clear my mind, but only managed to get it more foggy and clouded with other information..... =x time waste will never turn back... gotta put in more now. JIA YOU! ^^

2010-01-23T03:12:00.000+08:00

I miss flumpool ... =(

2010-01-23T00:03:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BEE YIN!!!

Lots of love from hsing and linzt. =) haha had a great time with bee yin and hsing today! Catching up at DTF, and just talk and relax.... and for me complaint. hahaha but good to find someone to talk on the same level, in chinese, and ramble about the stress!!!

And met up with FTB people today to celebrate Warren's belated bday .... had a good time chill for lunch buffet. Though its india food, the curry fish is really YUMMY! =) Awesome stuff and its about $13 per pax. =)

Now am blogging to take my mind off the gruesome pictures i saw just now. Glad it brings some comfort =) till nxt time, =)

2010-01-18T01:34:00.002+08:00

OMG... just 2 days of slacking and work is piling up!

It's fun to relax and catch up with close fren! Especially with best yesterday =) It's just so comfortable to talk with you and 2 hours flew by so quickly with just a simple cup of tea ;)

Today... was just so rushed! Rush to understand FA pjt, rush to make pineapple tarts, rush to meet frens for dinner. My fren rushed to drive us to sunset grill before sunset or else the route gets really dark and its hard to find out dinner venue.

Thankfully we didnt rush through the meal. Consisting of fiery, spicy buffalo wings. Help me... my lips were practically numbed by the spicyness, my throat was acting up, eyes & nose watering. I think my frens probably found me too comical. Had fun playing with the iphone app on A's phone while K tried to do a Buddhist chant to see if iphone can find the song title. LOL. Ultimate joker! Then drove around AMK area for dessert but didnt managed to find.

Thank God A sent all of us home or else i would be wondering how to get home from AMK. HAHA =)

While on the ride home as everyone dropped off, kinda understand why SMU is an atas school. I appreciate that i have good frens who doesnt despise me because of my bkgrd. At this point, still not on the same talking frequency as yet. Just dont think they would understand.

Despite the ride and all, its funny how A & P are pressuring me about how K is a good, not to forget rich person after he dropped off. Noooo.... not after i set my heart to listen to God... i just dont feel its right, afterall K is nice to everyone.

Hope everyone will keep me in prayer, that i truly focus on my studies, family & frens. Nothing more.

2010-01-17T07:43:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was an awesome day spent with best.

But just too drained to blog now. It seems that 4am was only minutes ago.

Now its almost 8!!! wth

2010-01-15T01:17:00.005+08:00

I NEED A DRINK!!!

Who cares about the flu, the sore throat! I regretted turning down JY for a drink tmr before everything happened. At this hour... i can only turn to that refrigerated liquor that will quench my sorrows.

Took out the corkscrew, the wine, and started to get busy. Removing the cork from the bottle has always a daunting task for me. The cork always get stuck in the corkscrew!! zzz never had the kind of skill that Dad has. Finally! the red liquid flowed into my glass. But before i can taste the sweet fruit of "my labour", faced with the challenge of corking the bottle. After wrestling with it for 10 mins, i gave up and dialed for SOS.

Dad laughed at my stupidity and inability. Oh well, he taught me the trick to fix the problem while describing me as a little inexperienced mouse looking for a small treat. LOL. =x cant help myself today, afterall there isnt any class on friday. =P

Yes, finally i can sit down, sip red wine and blog!

Today has been a queer day. Starting off with awakening from a weird dream, roused from my sleep by a weird task, seated beside a weird classmate, and a weird outburst from my sis. All this weirdness prompted me on an endless quest to seek solutions that i cant figure. Thus the wine. I know, not much of a solution. Let me escape reality for a while. And hence, this queer emo post...

Stress

This is an issue that has plagued my life ever since i first understood what it was. Enlightened when i barely passed science during primary 3 and never looked back while enduring the years of O levels. Stressful mugging days! They were put to an end when replaced by money issues stress during poly. Seems like grades became my second priority, (looking at the rate i part time & did vacation jobs) and the fact that i get VERY stressed when cash runs out.

The random comment that my sis made about how uni students get paid higher/can handle more task, was due to the fact that we could handle more stress. It got me thinking. How can that be true? For me, thats rather unbelievable.

All along, i thought if i just put in my best effort in school, i would be doing a service to myself and my family. Or so i thought. Pulling through primary school, secondary school, poly. I didnt think further than putting in my best and I didnt know how i would get to where i am now. Spurred to work harder, i didnt get why people didnt want to work hard! Kinda took for granted that everyone would want to strive for good grades! And for that reason, i was rather misled during my school days.

In fact, many people are working for rather different purposes and that grades wasn't the solution to the equation that they were working for.

And as i reflect on the past semester, I noticed how motivated my peers are in school, how i am lacking behind because how my way of life in poly has molded me, I realized there's so much more improvement i can make! Perhaps, somehow God has arranged me to be immersed in the best classes throughout my education days, and that has pushed me to my limits at achievement.

So much that upon reaching tertiary education, I realised that there's so much more in life. Hence i started to wander into other paths, seeking for friendship, relationship, for networks, for money, for material things, spiritual life. I seemed very much like diversifying from the sole purpose of education into the dangerous path of material temptations. That explains the dropping grades, losing focus, distraction from wanting the wrong things in life etc etc.

Recently, i discovered how distracted i am from studies. I am lacking the flair, the energy, motivation and sense of who i am. I no longer knew what i wanted anymore. Just the day before, i realised the wrong paths that i have taken in the previous semester. That not only hinders my graduation, but also the choice of getting into finance major, or even the impossible investment banking track! Wow... so many modules to clear, i didnt even plan for my path! What about meeting the grades!?!

Somehow, I knew that beyond surpassing the very hurdle of getting good grades, good major, lies a even greater challenge upon graduation. I've been running away from that truth.

Today, I am faced with that.

The plain truth. The burden of supporting the family. I believe this truth is already on the minds of those who are already in the workforce. I didnt want to plan for it.... i really dont. The implications seemed far worse than what i've imagined.

Mom's been worrying about losing job, dont even talk about dad. Sis with work she cant cope, studies she doesnt wanna focus. Y sis with so many years of bright future ahead of her. How can i satisfy everyone. Even with a uni degree, i think i cant bear it all. How much more can i earn? With the loans that i am bearing, they cant do this to me!!

Can i be selfish?

Besides planning parents retirement, y sis education, housing loan instalments, education loan instalments. Now comes a new addition: e sis full-time education. 4 years later, doesnt seem like a bright future to me anymore. Its going to get more tedious than ever.

Although the plaguing problems never cease to end, i managed to learn something today. I knew it long ago, but has long forgotten about these wise words. "Time waits for no man". Once the opportunity disappears, what lies ahead is for man to face. A phrase from Grey's Anatomy (which i googled somehow) :

"Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us can wants, is more time. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to let go."

How true is that. Many a times, we wished that we had more time to study, more time to rest, more time to accomplish our desires. BUT... many a times, we also let the devil get in the way and squander our precious time away. Wonderful words in the quote, but... difficult to do, difficult to realise. What in the world am i doing? Wasting time regretting what i have failed to do? Life plays trick on people, but people fail to learn.

I cant blame anyone but myself. And i hope others can read and learn, and not make the same mistakes that many people over the generations has made.

One last thing, who knows what other roadblocks that i may face 4 years from now... just when i am in the party mood to celebrate the slack timetable time sem. Hais

Its back to reality. PLAN!!!

2010-01-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

Its funny to just click on the archives and laugh at the nonsense i posted:

november 26,2006

next time erik ask u to check the sole of his shoes... dont do it... he use it to "exterminate 1 cockroach a day."

ok... mayb not so much... but he enjoys the feel of being able to step the cockroach then twist his feet with the cockroach beneath it and AFTER THAT... (here comes the good part) drag the shoes behind slowly so.... imagine the mess...

Who needs baygon when u have erik! Hahaz... i think that shld be the slogan if we really need to set up a PEST EXTERMINATOR company... hehex... the name of company shld be... ERIK PEST EXTERMINATOR. Our mission, kill 1 cockroach a day...

And my brain auto backtrack memory lane to that gruesome day that erik demonstrates his winning poise. I bet if I told him that today, he was shake his mop head and grit his teeth in utter disbelief. LOL. =)

In the mood of randomness. =)

2010-01-11T22:43:00.003+08:00

Its unbelievable how lazy i had been last year!

Always not in the mood to blog, to write or even talk. Now i am suffering the repercussions hahaha!

Anyways, TWC class today was on my greatest enemy: history. Thankfully the professor showed 2 engaging videos about history of agriculture and domestication. Brings back the good ole memories of Mrs Khoo coercing us to copy down "sample" geography answers or "you cant score the full marks!" during secondary days. The 3 year absence of National geographic has washed away all the possibly known 101 geography facts in me. When geography meets history, the beginnings of human civilisations and technological advances seems to make more sense. Enlightenment. For once, I peacefully shook my hands with history. LOL =)

I was surprised that something as simple as a climate change caused a great reverse in human's hunting-gathering culture into agriculture. Something even more amusing happened 5 minutes into the class. Under the "pressure" of the flu bug borne by me, wanting and zhangmin, adelyn's immunity finally relented and started to get blocked nose. YAYNESS! Welcome to the red-nose family adelyn =P And as the time goes by, we could hear random sniffing and coughing from the people in front, beside and opposite the class. Invasion succeed! Even the prof took out his bottled water in defence. Ahahaha... =D

He murmured random curses when he was discussing about the horrifying assignments he received from the past years. SUPER FUNNY, because he looks really prim and proper. And when he swears in a shy manner, its just damn entertaining.

Enough of flu bug and prof, time for medicine & sleep!

2010-01-08T00:24:00.002+08:00

Frustrations hit again.

When I'm being myself and others ask whats the problem with me...
If me is not me, me cannot coexist simultaneously.

2010-01-07T00:09:00.003+08:00

3 days into the school, 2010 have been great! until today.

Some of my bids for random classes turned out exceptional! I've got amusing & engaging professors. Thank God~! Not forgetting their superb English and the foreign accents, sem 2 will never be boring again =) To add on: the good "atmosphere", two of my classes are occupied by several familiar faces. Knowing them makes class participation less of a chore =) God is gracious!

To the extent that, I've met an acquaintance, which I suspect harboured ill feelings, from my previous job assignment (due to inter-departmental conflicts)! Making matters worse, the random group pjt allocation system by Prof has miraculously put us on the same team. Way to go! Before I get to know my project group mates, there is a mega roadblock already.

I guess that's how life springs on you sometimes, creating challenges and surprises so each day becomes more vibrant. Well, not exactly very keen on this arrangement... but guess i shall still work on it. Afterall, you dont get to choose in e working world, so just work with it! =)

Waking up everyday continues to be a struggle for me. Other major setbacks includes dealing with the readings and managing my stress level. Trying very hard to motivate myself to read these dry paper crumbs... if only the traditional method of downing a concoction of burnt paper "prescriptions" & mixing with water worked, it would make my life easier! Nonetheless, after the propaganda of countless professors that university education is more of building the mind rather than brainless mugging, i have been changed. I acknowledge that: yes, news is important. It can be interesting. Heres a quote that one of my prof showed us today:

"a feeling of grandeur,
intellectual curiosity,
a love of ideas,
a wider outlook,
even a global perspective." - Paul Johnson

At this point of time, I dont think i even meet any of that kind of levels. Even so, I wont give up because I dont want to graduate university the way i did poly. Studying without comprehension but with grades as sole motivatior. Learning both the thinking & human knowledge is just as important. It is a thought provoking quote which I hope will inspire me to persevere with the tough readings ahead. =)

2010-01-02T04:33:00.004+08:00

It's 2010!!!

I know, I'm one day late but still~~~ hahaha ;)

New year, filled with renewed spirit, rejuvenated to start it all over again! =) Kicked off the new year with Gayo Daejun, the korean music festival held annually before the end of each year. YAY! The above is my favourite perf from the whole show!!! CL from 2ne1 and G-dragon from BIG BANG! heee....CL'S got the attitude sia! Amazed!!! so much for my new year resolution to be less addicted to k pop + drama. LOL

U gotta wait for the second song in the video though, the first song is Parbom & Taeyang. And y sis introed a new nice song!

After watching hours of Gayo Daejun, guilt kicks in and 4 hours into 2010... i picked up accounting txtbk and practiced for 3 hours... and i still havent finished my adjusting chapter hmwk!!! zzz i tried my best.... collapsed into bed!

And went out for a good day of shopping!!! WHEE~! A bit guilty now coz i didnt fork out a single cent except paying for dessert. My new loot >> zara cardi, 2 DMK flats! OMOOOOOOO!!! No i didnt steal, my e sis paid for it! OMG! >< super happy, coz she was trying to accumulate $$$ to get the DMK membership! All that in exchange for ice cream waffle & chocolate cheese cake @ shokudo, WORTH IT!

I shall keep the nicer looking pair of flats for CNY~! Now got new shoes already! wheee... saw this really nice GLADIATOR HEELS!! O_O perfect fit! as if it was made for me!!! Just really sad that i didnt get it coz the friction from the zip of the shoes really... ouch! There was this other top from Springfield, wooly dress... ♥ i loved it! But kinda pricey so i gave up on it. Zara has this other nice victorian top that costs $59.90! *smacks head* branded is expensive T_T

Nevertheless, linzt feels very pampered by elder sis today! =D Although i still lack proper formal wear, i guess i shall just alter my pants rather than buying a new skirt. Elder sis also bought 4 new tops already, and is willing to share =) guess i can save a bit more on clothes already =) plus all the old clothes... linzt is a happy girl!!! But i still wanna get more dresses... OMO.... haha nv enough for me. =x

Hope everyone else had a great start in the new year! Even if things dont work out, we just need to trust and persevere no matter what!! Just like how i persevere with not buying new clothes, my elder sis got me new ones!! Ok... thats a bad eg... but stilll Happy new year everyone =)

2009-12-30T03:00:00.007+08:00

Holidays sure fly by quickly! Haven accomplished much but am well rested! =) Thank God. It's been a hectic term and the break has taken my mind off school & much of the stress that comes together with it. No doubt there were times when life gets aimless & boring, I am thankful for it. Even in my spare time, I just laze around, watch dramas, not blogging nor doing work, occassional jogs (original plan was daily run, but it got thwarted after 2 weeks of persistence haha).

Besides the lazy routine, managed to hang out with great friends for gathering, dinners, movies, concert! =)

15 Dec: Lydia's 20th birthday
Started planning 1 month before, wanted to have it amazing race+games style but settled for simple dinner at oriole's cafe & bar instead. =) Ok, maybe not so simple dinner because it was so sumptuous & located at the atas Pan Pacific Executive Suite! We ordered 2 sets of fish & chips, grilled chicken, seabream risotto, cod fish pie, prawn spaghetti, spicy calamari and philly cheese steak for the 9 of us to share.

Best of Oriole! Fish & Chips =) ($15)

Cod fish pie~ =) Great crust, yummy fillings! ($28) Expensive too >_< Grilled Chicken, average stuff but the baked potatoes are good! ($23)

Adelyn's favourite coz it resembles australian dishes! Seabream risotto, i loved the rice too! Worth every single dollar!($26)
Differing opinions from some of the other gals, some couldnt get used to the taste.

Lydia's Haagen Daz Ice cream vanilla cake which she picked but ended up liking adelyn's instead LOL! =P

Adelyn's delectable chocolate fudge cake! =D SUPER SWEET YUMMY & SINFUL!!
The chocolate fudge just oooze out of the cake. Hehe~ together with the raspberry sauce, yummy =)

It was a wonderful evening celebrating Lydia & Adelyn's birthday, sadly some of the other girls couldnt make it. My only regret is not trying their wonderful coffee because i drank wine earlier. =( Heard that place got the best coffee in Singapore! Despite the total bill of $200 (that was shared among 7), I WILL BE BACK AGAIN for their coffee and fish & chips! =D

Managed to catch up with the rest too, and found that i see life too simply. I dont ask for much, occasional dinners, catching up between friends. Ever since uni, such simple outings are precious moments that i treasure. Perhaps life may get complicated, but i hope i will nv need to lose my friends. I love these wonderful people who walked through poly with me and maybe even further. =) Cant wait for our next meet up, thinking of a chinese new year "reunion gathering" for all of us, PLANNING TIME! =)

22 Dec 2009: Escape to JB =p
I stole my passport from mom's cabinet, (why am i stealing my own passport lol!) and sneak off for day trip to City Sq, JB. Original plan was to go Batam with my business law group mates but it was postponed. So me and 2 other frens went for a short JB trip. =) Pretty fun exploring the place! And everything was $$ half price coz of the currency. =D

Think the best part of the trip was to eat at a pretty decent restaurant and buy GOOD make up from Etude House there! It was on offer and priced like in Singapore. Discount & offers! *faints* My fren got this really smooth and good foundation that was on 50% off in msia which costs about S$12. Guess how much they sold in Singapore?? S$29.90! WAH HAHA what a deal. Mine was only about 2 dollars cheaper than what was sold in singapore. Ah heck, offer can liaos. HAHAHA. Enough about makeup, the other highlight was seeing one of our classmate on a date with his gf in JB. LOL! Think he wanted to avoid Smu people & escape there but he chose the wrong day coz we were there! HAHAHA. Damn amusing to see his sian face. LOL. And lastly...

My new name: Elizebet's Black Forest Mocha (Large). Courtesy of Coffee Bean JB. HAHA

12 Dec 2009: Sundown Festival - Seoul'd OUT! 2009 @ Fort Canning
OH MY GOSH... i waited so long for Korean star to come Singapore! $85 so be it! Extremely fun evening to enjoy concerts from T-max (Sang F4 opening & ending songs), FT island (dear hongki from You're beautiful drama ><) and B.E.G.!!! * faints! Its a girl band that i am crazy over since poly and THEY ARE HERE IN SINGAPORE! omg... unbelievable! Ultimate star struck!

It was a cool 3 hour long concert, gotta stand throughout even on my 5 inch wedge. At the end my feet was NUMB. BUT!!! Worthwhile =) About 7,000 people were there that day. It was super PACKED and squeezing, with fanboy standing behind me & my frens screaming out for b.e.g.'s dearest GA-IN hahaha, so amusing, while all the girl fans were like HONGKI!!! lol. Awesome show =) cant wait for Seoul'd out 2010 *cross my fingers that SNSD comes =)

Beware as my fangirling powers unleash! LOL...

Ft-Island - I Hope ( Cant find a good concert video so posted the mv here instead =))

Ft Island @ Press Conference

B.E.G ( Brown Eye Girls) They were super cool!
Ga-in was cool as usual, until its a bit cold ( 2nd from left)
The two girls on both ends(Miryo & J.A.) were pretty sweet and keep waving in our direction coz all the fan boys behind us were screaming their heads off. LOL! ^^ we benefited anyways.

The hit song!! =) Just damn happy that i caught them at Seoul'd out =) they are really hot and sexy, hahaha =) BEG 4eva!! Be careful, do turn down the volume coz the screaming of crazy fan girls are really... no joke. HAHA. =) hope the warning doesnt come too late. =)

B.E.G. - Sign (their new song! =) they performed this too! ultimate coolness!!!)

27 Nov 2009 - Outing with Best to celebrate end of exams!!!

As mentioned in my previous post! Simple evening with simple wanton mee & simple obsession over christmas decorations - balls especially, at the Orchard Ion. It was just amazing to spend the night chilling & relax, being crazy at times by taking random shots like the above =) time well-spent. =)

Even as the new year comes, and another sems looms... i hope i will still have time for myself to hang out with friends amidst busy work, for cca, for overseas cip trip or work & travel USA, and still study hard so i can get A- for my subject to pull up my GPA. Difficult wish, but... hope it can be fulfilled =) Till then, cya next year 2010! Happy New Year people =)

2009-11-26T03:50:00.004+08:00

Nothing beats spending time together with your family and friends. ^^
Its been a while since i could let go of my work and enjoy...
Seaweed shaker fries taste so heavenly, one packet of it wasn't enough.
Strolling along the streets, decorated with red and blue Christmas lighting.
Just absorbing the scenery, the atmosphere and enjoying every moment.

As though, time has slowed down for me.
Thank you bf for spending time with me =)
What a wonderful way to start my break!

For those studying for exams, jia you! You're time will come ;)

Happy holidays everyone! =)

2009-11-23T03:38:00.003+08:00

wheee~ gg! its 3.45am, unearthly time to be blogging and slack. LOL...

just finished covering EC.... @_@

I STILL GOT SO MANY TOPICS DONT UNDERSTAND.... TMR TEST DIEEEEE...

hahaha and i am still here to cut myself some slack.

i still got ROT, Remedies, Frustration, Negligence - negligent act resulting in physical damage and economic loss, negligent misstatement resulting in physical damage, and nervous shock, and many more templates not completed...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET MISREP, NEGLIGENCE - MISSTATEMENT RESULTING PURE ECONOMIC LOSS AND EXEMPTION CLAUSE APPEAR IN EXAM!

haha... but... usually what i spot dont come out for exams. just super suay. HAHA. shall go prepare checklist tmr for the other topics that dont have template. DAMN SCREWED!

even with open book, my fate is ... haha ... gg!

2009-11-20T15:04:00.000+08:00

BENNY BENASSI IS IN TOWN TMR!!! AND I CANT GO!!!!!!!!!! crys

stupid exams. besides that smu life is <3 with all the great frens.

AND i should stop getting myself into unnecessary trouble. SCHOOL = STUDYING! =(

2009-11-19T11:42:00.001+08:00

AHHHH... cant sleep, cant study.... how to prepare for exams!!! GRRRR

2009-11-13T22:07:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! my sem is finally over!! I was so relieved after "submiting" on the school portal... and immediately went to start of my grammar quiz. But actually i only uploaded and didnt complete the final step of submission. WIN. lol. at the end was late by an hour half when i realised it. =X already appeal to prof. hopefully it will work out!

Nonetheless, i managed to survive! The horrible tough life of smugger!! :) Victory taste sweet! I hope to do better next sem! But before that, gotta pull through study week and exams! Hhaha, shall just take it along as it comes. =)

As everyone can see, after going through 13 weeks of acadmic writing, i dont see much improvement in my english. LOL. i better improve it if i dont want to die so soon. LOL!

Thank God for all the great people i met, friends and pjt mates alike. He has blessed me abundantly with really nice people around, and 3 other poly kaki... wt, adelyn & zm. =) no matter what we always have each other in smu. =)

I cant wait for the holidays! and time to slack, chill, and go out with frens and buy new clothes! i wanna curl my hair sia! =) want to do so many so many things! =D

JW intro new song! =D 流れ星 - Mika Nakashima! <3 heee one of my favourite japanese singer ever since gundam seed was out. =D in case people dont know, its an anime. HAHA =D
It has the sweetest lyrics. =)

振り出した突然の雨　キミを待つ改札前
小さすぎる傘に肩が濡れてしまうけど　いつもより寄り添えたね

ねえ　子供みたいに泣いたり　ねえ　またすぐ笑いあったり
ボクらはもう　一人じゃない
YOU STAY FOREVER

流れ星　失くしたもの失くしちゃいけないもの
どんな時も　一番近くでキミを感じていたい
流れ星　ねえ　二人過ごしてく日々の中で
見上げた空　つないだ手　同じ未来を見つめていたい

It suddenly started raining, I waited in front of the ticket gate
The small umbrella left our shoulders wet but it brought us closer than usual

Hey, we’ll cry like children, yeah, then we’ll just laugh about it
We’ll never feel lonely again
YOU STAY FOREVER

Shooting star, something I lost, something I never should have
I always want to feel you close, closer than anything
Shooting star, hey, in these passing days we spend together
We held hands and looked to the sky, I want us to see the same future

2009-11-04T01:33:00.004+08:00

Living in this insane world for 12 weeks, i've kinda grew numb to it. School is just to be hopeful that the day will pass without much difficulty. Revision has become non-existence in my dictionary, which mysteriously creeps back 6 or 7 hours before exams or pop quiz are due and disappears almost immediately after the exam is over.

Doing project and burning my weekends, missing home cooked food and sleep has become norms in my life. Thinking about poly life and frens pops into my mind every now and then when life gets tough. Being able to have rather responsible group mates is the best thing you could ever wish for. Having chui ones, just gotta pray hard and harder that they do their job.

Almost end of 1 semester, and now bidding for the next. I hope my next semester, i will get the same kind of friendliness for my future group mates, slacker prof and better grades. HAHA... thats the idealistic situation but common, i can just dream on, but then again i cant, i still got pop quiz and undone project and writing of my script for thurs presentation still outstanding.

My WIP inventory is getting bigger and bigger, but no finished goods LOL. Cant wait to take FA next sem!!! =D

But God still surprises me in many ways and keeps life interesting and survivable. If there such a word. LOL. Wonderful present from Dad awaits, =) just need to wait for the charger to come. Drools. TOUCH PRO! URESHII!!!